So what?

I'm losing my self-esteem lately. The world is revolving and I'm stuck in this stand-still world of mine. Why am I so weak mentally? Just because of some criticism I've been upset about various of things and begin to doubt my abilities. I might be a slow learner, so what? I'm lazy..so what? I'm a coward, so what? WELL, that's the end of it. If I'm a slow learner, I need to work extra hard. I'm not born perfect, I have flaws. Too much flaws. SO WHAT? I'm lazy, don't worry...I know when to get my ass working. I'm a coward. Yes, in a sense that I'm timid of venturing new stuff and making mistakes. I need to make more mistakes and learn more. So what if I start late? Even if I start late, it IS better than not starting it at all right? Self control! Self Control! SELF CONTROL. That's what matter most! No one is to be blame except for YOURSELF. Be responsible for everything that happens in your life. Be it bad or good. I need to get up, stand up, wake up, work up, chin up, head up and cheer up! Not only me, but everyone of you who were feeling depressed and lost! It's not like I don't care about people around me, I do have sympathy and empathy towards humans. But that doesn't mean one can slip away by dwelling themselves in pain and drown themselves into the pool of desperation. You know it's not good, so why do so? We know it's bad for the heart if we take things to account and get overly sad when our abilities and effort didn't meet our aspirations. But hey, SO WHAT? You've tried, you've done it, be proud of it. Face it, embrace it, burn that shit sadness of yours and start planting some seed of happiness in your damn head. You have the choice to choose. You have the right to choose. If there's no choice, make one. You think you have no rights to do so? Then screw it, make yourself worth it !

KEEP THE DESIRE BURNING!


*note to self*