Appreciation

Hmm, appreciation. It doesn't really relate to my topic here but anyway, here I go . 

I do really appreciate friendship and indeed I do treasure it. I know I might have treated you bad at times, that is why I need you to tell me. If anything is really going wrong about me,tell me. There's times I thought, can I trust her? Will it be alright if I be her friend or something like that.

But now, the me was different, I accept changes no matter how hard it is *I do complain too but I got used to it eventually* because I've been through situations like this. I no longer thought of all those questions because I'm blessed with great friends. 

But recently, changes has come and destroy it but, is it really changes the cause of it? Or was it the person itself is destroying it? I believe the person itself is destroying his/her happiness. I'm not particularly saying anyone here but when happiness goes, it's partly your fault. Think of  have you did. 

Sometimes I really can get frustrated about small things like, people complaining / crying about really small matters. I know I'm bad but, I have this weird complex here. 

Today, there's this incident happen. There's this accusation about me. I don't really want to tell it in detail. Enough of that, I tried to control my temper real hard so that I won't go crazy simple scolding and curing people. Instead, there's this person who add fuel on my fire. Instead of supporting me, she made a joke out of it. I still have hopes for her to come back but now, no. Some people really need to understand why I'm doing this, when I'm really dissapointed with a person,, means..aish...nvm..

I was really, mad and at the same time, dissapointed. But now, I'm gonna stand up and move on. I'm not gonna let all of these people made my life miserable. I know god have eyes to see who's the bad and good guy. One day you'll know and learn your lesson . And I do really hope that you don't cry for it because you're the cause of it. Instead, move on and learn from your mistake. Look forward, remember your past and let it carry with you till the end of your life.