Pure luck?

I got my results for both violin and piano exam. Passed =) Piano..I just pass with merits =/ I think the examiner was a bit far to strict! 127! Could you like just give the 3 marks to me? >,> It's just 3 marks..so near! yet so far....Life is so sad! Things just doesn't goes the way you want. XD A short update for this blog.

            Seriously, I'm emotionally down these days. I had this sudden feeling about something back then when I was Form 1. Seriously, it sucks so much. I don't think the work is pressuring but sometimes, I just thought, am I better of being 'hitori'? Or am I meant to be 'hitori'? Nanka...sabishii desu. ...Somehow, the things that I yearned for a long time was coming true but in the end...I guess it has to end too. The world itself is big for us to explore? Are these things worth my attention? People say, enjoy your youth before its too late but, is there anything for me to enjoy? Those happy moments seems too short for me. It is just not enough. I tried to be more on the positive side but still, the sad moments seems to be too over whelming .

         Words can't really be trusted. A simple word of forgot can clear stuff up? A simple word of  sorry can soften one's heart? I don't think so. Please people, could you please open your eyes bigger? Think twice before you act and speak? Because of your carelessness people are suffering mentally and emotionally. Emotions are unpredictable. Since emotions doesn't has a face, it can't be spoken out loud! You have to understand and please, stop the questions like...Are you angry? What if its so? Does it even make a difference? You say you're saying the truth, since you've lied to me...making a fool out of someone, how are you gonna expect anyone to trust you? Because of your careless act, you've just destroy a person's trust. Yet, you don't realize. If everyone would think twice before they act, won't the world be a better place?

         I'm not telling you to change, or whatever. It seems like, when I'm hurt, you yourself feels guilty and it's making me feel guilty too for making you feeling guilty? So what now? Am I suppose to stay that way forever? I don't really know what now. Am I being to lenient? Selfish? Self centered? Maybe if I shut my mouth and pretend nothing happens then nothing of this bad feeling will be spread to others. It's like, it's much more better if one person gets hurt instead of two. I always thought that, '' It's better to make friends more than making enemies'' How long can I keep this principle alive since those moments are dragging down my spirit?


''You say that you'll be there for me but where are you now?'' ''You say that ''zutto tomodachi dakara..nani yo, sore? Baka janai no ka teme? Hidoi ne omae....

Nanka..kurushii desu T^T

Seems like I've been dropping real hard. I don't think I'm gonna have any A's for the main subjects now. Maybe I should stop this computer addiction and get back on track. Doesn't really seem like me getting such poor results. Doing careless mistakes even though I've really study perfectly this time. Even so, why am I being so careless?

Change

Changes are not bad, it's necessary to make changes (sometimes). Did I mention how much of a bad luck I'm going through?

           1. I lost/misplaced my Grade 5 scales and arpeggios book.
           2. Science exam is coming up, I mean today!
           3. I lost/misplaced my Suzuki Violin Vol.4
           4. Having 3 different exams in a row. -Science,Violin and Music Theory (School's)

How bad can it go I wonder ? Well..that's a short post for today. Back to reality..STUDY..*sigh*

Plainly just people with no brains

Damn...thinking about it just make me so damn pissed. We did everything, did all the playing for you, notes, melody and what you all want now? Lyrics were photostatted..all you have to do now is just sing! Yea and I know it's hard singing also, to those out there, I appreciate very much who co-operated well with us but to those idiots who didn't even contribute anything, can you just shut up? You are just a normal student with no position. You did nothing to the class, instead, you gave trouble and plenty of shits and still you are complaining? What a great person you are, you just don't know what the word ''trouble'' means, what the word ''contribute'' means. Yeah, even though you see this post or I tell it straight to your face, will you change? Will you even say sorry? Will even like even have a slight of guilt? or sorry? I bet so, NO. All I know about you use, a solely useless person, who knows how to play, boss around, do things your own way, seeing things so easily and also give trouble. You really love the way you do things now isn't it? I'm telling you this truthfully and logically, basically, humans just don't like these type of person and I'm sure, if you know someone like I describe, I bet you'll just make that person's life miserable by bad mouthing her.

                 Why do you want to complain when you didn't do anything? Whats with you? I'm plainly frustrated now because of some people out there as I say...NO BRAINS...living out there. Yeah, you have the right to live and complain, well how about me? I bet if you were in my position now, you have just break down. With all the works I'm left here, piling up like mountains. Pressure suppressing happiness? Is this the way I should be living now? Is this the way? Go brush off your irritating    attitudes. I JUST DESPISE ALL OF YOU! *some of those people out there, not all xD* Get it? EVEN THOUGH I SAY IT OUT HERE, YOU JUST WONT UNDERSTAND! WILL YOU LEARN? WILL YOU GET REGRETTED? NO! SO SHUT THE FU*K UP!

If they are changing the songs, I don't think I want to play, unless they give me the scores or everything.

Bon Odori

Hey, seriously... I'm damn freaking disappointed man! They've never told us that coupons were limited 0.o! We went there 8p.m. and yea..everything finished! Great..We only get to see dances...and line dancing to the melody of Nobody =/ It's hot there...and no food to eat -.-...The area is supper small! And the best part is..why are they organizing it in an housing area? 0.o Anyway..I thought it should be great but instead in turns out to be bad..real bad...

It's real depressing

This round's exam is really making me depressing. Well probably I do deserve the results, or maybe I'm just plainly stupid or something. I can help being sad, I'm just not in the mood. I try to be happy though, well I did, sometimes, get over it but there just this empty feeling in my heart -.- It's a feeling of total lost. I really don't know what had happen to me. Yea, maybe I know, instead of saying I don't know. Maybe it's because of, I'm lazy, I played too much..I mean..WAY TOO MUCH...Not serious, Kokurikulum activities.

       Maybe those were the factors, but, once again, I shouldn't have use that as an excuse..between..I was supposed to post this like around 2 days ago? Anyway, terrible results =/ bye...

*p/s*
Had a real terrible headache for 2days continuously...

Atarashi no Sekai

Wind of beginnings, deliver your message
“Because at all times I believe in you”
LOVE THAT LINE 8D

Why don't I just post the whole song -.-


Hajimari no Kaze by Ayaka Hirahara


hajimari no kaze yo todoke MESSEJI
itsu de mo anata o shinjite iru kara

ano toki yume ni mite ita sekai ni tatte iru no ni
miwatasu keshiki ni ashi o sukoshi sukumase
dakedo ushiro furimukanaide aruite yuku koto kimeta kara
miageta sora nanairo no niji anata mo mitemasu ka

hajimari no kaze yo todoke MESSEJI
yume ni kakedashita senaka mimamoru kara
maiagaru kaze yo omoi o tsutaete
itsu de mo anata o shinjite iru kara
habatake mirai e

tatoeba taisetsu na hito o mune ni omou toki wa
dare mo ga kitto yasashii kao o shiteru hazu
michi wa toki ni hateshinakute mo akiramezu ni yuku yo

hajimari no kaze yo todoke MESSEJI
haruka na tabiji no sono saki de matteru
maiagaru kaze yo unmei mo koete
negai wa todoku to shinjirareru kara
itsuka mata aeta nara ano egao misete

hajimari no kaze yo todoke MESSEJI
haruka na tabiji no sono saki de matteru
maiagaru kaze yo unmei mo koete
negai wa todoku to shinjirareru kara
osoreru mono nado nai anata ga iru kara

Wind of beginnings, deliver your message
“Because at all times I believe in you”

Though I’m standing in the world that I had dreamt of back then
My feet draw back a little at the scenery I look about
But because I’ve decided to walk on, I won’t look back behind me
Are you also watching the seven-coloured rainbow in the sky that I looked up at?

Wind of beginnings, deliver your message
Because I watch over you as you dashed out into your dreams
Soaring wind, convey your thoughts
“Because at all times I believe in you”
Fly to the future

Everyone surely should have a gentle look
For instance, when you think about a precious person in your chest
Even though the road through time doesn’t end, I go without giving up

Wind of beginnings, deliver your message
I’m waiting for you ahead on your faraway journey
Soaring wind, surpass your fate as well
Because if I can believe that wishes will be granted
If we had been able to meet again someday, show me that smile

Wind of beginnings, deliver your message
I’m waiting for you ahead on your faraway journey
Soaring wind, surpass your fate as well
Because if I can believe that wishes will be granted
There is nothing to fear, “because you exist”