Friends - Part 1-

Writing good things about people makes me feel good somehow, how about you? It somehow reminds me about the fun times we had together and all :D So now let's talk about my friend 'A'

    She's actually older than me by a few days. But she's innocent and naive. She's a good person. From the first time I know her she didn't really give out a deep impression to me but it's funny now how things changes between me and her. She's actually very smart but always claim herself stupid. Fragile at first but now, tougher than before, which is a good thing. She gets angry sometimes for me. Flower heart ( she said it herself , don't blame me :D ) She's dense in some ways or sometimes ( that's good too :D )

   Fun moments we had together :

   Music time! especially rehearsals for performances!

   The same body unit with me, so we have a lot of fun together too.

   Visiting her house, get to see her playing piano

   Front desk mate, she always turn her chair to have some chat and gossip with us.

   Heart to heart talk , that's when we understand more about each other

   Skype, we can talk till morning comes.

   MSN, IM purposes, talking rubbish all the time and creating fantasies....

   Watching sad movies, I get to see her cry

   Ghost story...exiting moments

   Study time, talk more than study

   Serious study times, better but still talk

   Folios, staying up late together again and sharing information

   In school ( early in the morning before classes starts ) a kick-start good laugh by her

There's a lot actually but it takes time to remember, now that my laptop's battery is running out, it's time to say goodbye :) adious amigos! Tune in more for my description of friend B :D

I wonder if it's wrong or right sometimes. Giving the thought that I'm always righteous about everything. I caught up too much with my own pace. I should look more around. Understanding more about people. I need to grow more mature. I've been losing myself very easily now. I'm repeating those important lesson as well as memories I have for the past few important years I've been. Things are starting to get bad it seems. Well, now I'm trying to be as optimistic as I can.

     I can tell you my temper now is getting really bad. Too much things to do I guess. I should take things likely. Smiling always will help more I guess. Being sour all the time make things more worse. Now, I'm repeating the words and promises I've said to my friends last time. I really intend to keep our friendship last till' the last of my breath. No matter how we fought, I'll get things back together. I know I'm not alone in this and so they were. We're still young and we have a lot to learn from each other. There are still a lot of things I don't know about my friend. Earning people's trust is hard.

     Especially when you met someone like me. There's still time when I wanna keep my own things personal to myself. I wonder one day if I'll really tell everything about me to them. I don't have the guts now but lets hope I have it in the future. For now, I hope they trust me more as much as I trust them now. I believe in them and I hope they do. Saying all these stuff may sound disgusting to you readers out there but trust me, when you have friends like mine, you'll feel like bragging how good they are and how luck you are.

    I'm starting to have some flashbacks about my primary school. I miss my old friends. Especially her. We've been keeping in touch and of course that's a good thing. I've always admire her great hard work. She's a good person, someone who can always lend you a pair of good ears and advises.  She's a smart person too and a bright kid ;P I hope we get to hang out some time!

Next, I'm gonna blog again about my friends :D

Reality

Reality is really cruel. Anything could happen. Even your closest person with you might be the potential one to betray you. Kindness in this world can rarely be found now. Being naive is not bad but be it by your own risk. Getting cheated and all. In the end the you're the one getting hurt the most, mentally, or maybe, physically. Sad huh? I wonder why humans now are making life so hard for everyone. I don't think it's that hard to be kind. A slight consideration for others and a moderate manners can make a world better you know? People now should learn more about that. Not only for kids, but for all the teens and adults out there too. Someone need to give them a piece of mind about mannerism and tolerance. Somehow I just wish this world would be a bit better when time pass by. I know there are still some angelic hearts out that, but I think that's only one in a million, worse, one in a billion or maybe worst, one in a trillion.

I've been back to blogging quite often now. There's always things that I want to say but I can't. Too forgetful. Sad to say, the results are still saddening me. I need to get out of my pathetic attitude. Still, I need some more time for full recovery. I hate it when it comes to these sorts of stuffs. Not to mention, I even have a performance in Jusco tomorrow. Time passes really fast. This time, I don't feel nervous at all. I got use to the place already I guess. It's been several times already since I've performed there. Well, not really several, maybe 3 times.

          I'm feeling really confused and mix up now. I need to pull myself together...damn me

Time passes...real fast

Today I went out with my friends. Had our breakfast/lunch? in McD. Talk and chit-chatted. My friend just reminded me  something, " Kee! Only four more months left" I was like..yea. In four more months, we'll be Form 4s/16/2nd Year High School Student/What ever that you like to call. Time passes really fast. At this point after PMR, we have to choose which stream we plan to take on. Of course for the best, we hope to be in the same class again. Thing really will change after that and I'm indeed very worried about it. We've spent time together for like almost 3 years being classmates, going out together during free times...man, I'm going to miss those days. That is, if we were separated.

       PMR is coming soon. Should take it seriously. Imagine if it was SPM. I'll die....hahaha. Those were the days when I was 12, I find myself stupid freaking out for UPSR. This is life cycle eh?

     12 yrs old : ARH!!! UPSR, SO HARD. *study like mad* Results :straight As
     15 yrs old : Damn, PMR this year *delay study, study, break, didn't study* : ? straight As? or miss 
                        As? I wish UPSR was that easy, why was I so stupid worrying about UPSR

And I bet in the future I'll be like, damn! PMR was easy! compare to SPM. hahhaha...Lame and pathetic me.

Downfall ...

Test result wasn't that satisfying. Rather, disappointing. Should work hard now. I wonder if I'll keep my words, I'm always making false promises to myself and in the end, works are not carry our promptly. Damn. I think if this crappy attitude of mine keeps going on, I think I'll die soon. Practically I'm the type of person who hates to lose or fail. This time it was really bad. I think until I die, I'll still remember it.

          I guess this is what they call growing process. I should keep the blame to myself. But one thing I really hate it is when people start questioning about your problems and asked why are you doing this. I don't hate it but, it's just making me so uncomfortable. It was hard for me to answer when me myself can't answer it. I knew everything but it seems like when it comes to the end of it I forgot everything. Human is too complicated, so I think they should stop questioning. Nah...just don't like it. If it was my close friends, I don't really mind but, it will be the best if they don't ask. I feel better that way. Makes me feel guilty and sad at the same time.

           Guilty for committing such mistakes, sorry for disappointing so many people. You shouldn't have put such high hopes on me you know. Don't call me smart when I'm stupid. I'm not smart at all. I work hard too for my goal.  Depending plainly on my brain doesn't help at all. I'm not that type of genius. Not at all. Damn sad, really sad.


          Lesson to all the lazy kids/the same type of person as me/whatsoever  people out there. Study hard or you'll regret. Do what you're suppose to be doing and stop the nonsense immediately. I bet if you change now, you'll still make it on time. It takes some time though. It's tough. I'm still on with my bad habits of sitting long hours in front of the computer, but at least now, I made some time for studying. At least for an hour. If I don't do that, I think when there's another test, I'll seriously feel really really sad. A sadness will with regretion. haha, how bad could things be.

１４才の母 / 14 Sai no Haha

This drama is nice. Consist of 11 episodes.
This show is a bout a 14 years old girl who got pregnant. She was just a middle school-er that time. It is a very touching story. Worth watching even though the drama is really progressing slow. Still, I love the plot. Suitable for teenage girls and boys to watch. You'll learn a lot after watching this drama. I'm half way through the show though. Will catch up when I have the time :) One of the reason I'm watching this show is because of the beautiful cast inside. LOL. My favorite actor Haruma Miura is in it! BWAHAHAHA. But his character in this drama ain't that good. Too pathetic. The main girl was good :D So cute, she was just 13 when she was filming the show. For the boy, he's 16 when he's filming the show. That's all for today :D Be sure to watch

****It's a Japanese drama******