It's real depressing

This round's exam is really making me depressing. Well probably I do deserve the results, or maybe I'm just plainly stupid or something. I can help being sad, I'm just not in the mood. I try to be happy though, well I did, sometimes, get over it but there just this empty feeling in my heart -.- It's a feeling of total lost. I really don't know what had happen to me. Yea, maybe I know, instead of saying I don't know. Maybe it's because of, I'm lazy, I played too much..I mean..WAY TOO MUCH...Not serious, Kokurikulum activities.

       Maybe those were the factors, but, once again, I shouldn't have use that as an excuse..between..I was supposed to post this like around 2 days ago? Anyway, terrible results =/ bye...

*p/s*
Had a real terrible headache for 2days continuously...

Atarashi no Sekai

Wind of beginnings, deliver your message
“Because at all times I believe in you”
LOVE THAT LINE 8D

Why don't I just post the whole song -.-


Hajimari no Kaze by Ayaka Hirahara


hajimari no kaze yo todoke MESSEJI
itsu de mo anata o shinjite iru kara

ano toki yume ni mite ita sekai ni tatte iru no ni
miwatasu keshiki ni ashi o sukoshi sukumase
dakedo ushiro furimukanaide aruite yuku koto kimeta kara
miageta sora nanairo no niji anata mo mitemasu ka

hajimari no kaze yo todoke MESSEJI
yume ni kakedashita senaka mimamoru kara
maiagaru kaze yo omoi o tsutaete
itsu de mo anata o shinjite iru kara
habatake mirai e

tatoeba taisetsu na hito o mune ni omou toki wa
dare mo ga kitto yasashii kao o shiteru hazu
michi wa toki ni hateshinakute mo akiramezu ni yuku yo

hajimari no kaze yo todoke MESSEJI
haruka na tabiji no sono saki de matteru
maiagaru kaze yo unmei mo koete
negai wa todoku to shinjirareru kara
itsuka mata aeta nara ano egao misete

hajimari no kaze yo todoke MESSEJI
haruka na tabiji no sono saki de matteru
maiagaru kaze yo unmei mo koete
negai wa todoku to shinjirareru kara
osoreru mono nado nai anata ga iru kara

Wind of beginnings, deliver your message
“Because at all times I believe in you”

Though I’m standing in the world that I had dreamt of back then
My feet draw back a little at the scenery I look about
But because I’ve decided to walk on, I won’t look back behind me
Are you also watching the seven-coloured rainbow in the sky that I looked up at?

Wind of beginnings, deliver your message
Because I watch over you as you dashed out into your dreams
Soaring wind, convey your thoughts
“Because at all times I believe in you”
Fly to the future

Everyone surely should have a gentle look
For instance, when you think about a precious person in your chest
Even though the road through time doesn’t end, I go without giving up

Wind of beginnings, deliver your message
I’m waiting for you ahead on your faraway journey
Soaring wind, surpass your fate as well
Because if I can believe that wishes will be granted
If we had been able to meet again someday, show me that smile

Wind of beginnings, deliver your message
I’m waiting for you ahead on your faraway journey
Soaring wind, surpass your fate as well
Because if I can believe that wishes will be granted
There is nothing to fear, “because you exist”

Random thoughts

Suddenly thought of some random lines..
Those lines were usually used to keep me going during hard times..


''There's always a solution to a problem, it's just a matter of time whether you're able to find it or not''
''The ending is just the beginning''
''Start thinking what you can do and don't waste time''
''It doesn't matter, the one whose at lost is you not me''
''Save time. Don't complain and do more work *-.-*''
'Everyone is equally the same, I think?''
''Be grateful..''


Well, yeah, I have a crazy mind =) So? I tend to think of nonsense when I have nothing to do..*laughs*


Sometimes I just can't depend on someone right? Just have to keep my mind positive and keep going, although sometimes, those so-called words of encouragement of mine that I kept mumble to myself doesn't seems working, but at least I tried =)

*now isn't it RANDOM =D*

Tomodachi

It nice to be born in this world isn't it? Some of you might thought that they might the world's most unfortunate human on Earth..but..aren't people lucky that they're born in this world? We'll especially those who blessed with bosom friends. The passive me last time thought that friends wasn't really essential for me, not wasn't really, you can put it as in, it's not important. Yup, I've been quite a solemn and a practical person which you can say I have partly no sincere emotions to people around me. I kinda feel guilty now that those were the days when I often fake my smile, pretending to be happy when there's a sad moment. Well sad to say, I'm still quite adapt to that habit, as we say, habits are always hard to shake off.


          Me as a human being living for almost 14 years is yet to experience more about life, and of course, I've just realize that how wonderful life is. I was really lucky to know supportive friends last year. Must have been fate that brought us together. Well, I didn't really pay much of a attention to them last year compare to this year. Must have been those time when I'm just to use to daydream.

         I have to say that this year was quite a hectic, but somehow, I pulled off. Class problems and all sorts of stuff which is related mostly to school. But what can I do? Just keep pushing on. I can't stay like this forever isn't it? There's no such things as no solution to a problem. As I realize, I thought, it wasn't bad facing all these problems. I'll just have to take that as a lesson. I know it'll be useful one day.

        Haha, enough of my personal matters, I've actually wanted to talk more about it but maybe, the next post. I'll continue the friend part. This is gonna be long so be prepared! I have to say that I numeral friends who are there to support me. To those of my friends who are reading, you might think that sometimes you'll feel very useless for not able to do anything. Not being able to give good advice. Thinking that you're a trouble maker. Not being to do anything... it can't be help right? Well having a sincere heart of helping is good enough. Nothing is greater than a sincere will of heart to help. In some situation, we only can just look and let them take action. We'll if it's so, why not let nature take course?

      I hope all this twist and turn of message here is sent to all of my friends, not just my friends, to the person out there who's in vain. I hope this post will make you feel much more better. I'm a victim of broken friendship because the past me has always been very very selfish thinking. So friends are free, you don't need money to buy, you only need sincere to make friends. Start by being friends with yourself  ( You can't love a person if you don't love yourself first)