Sad

Sometimes I wonder, what have I done to deserve such sadness.
Sorry, if I'm making a big fuss of everything.
Sometimes, I'm just tired.
Tired of everything.
But I keep telling myself,
Pain is temporary,
Being happy is a choice,
Time moves,
And so should I.

When you think you've overcome this hurdle,
another gushes in.
You stay calm and face it,
another one hits,
till you're broken,
left with no time to heal,
Tell me, why?
We were made with such fragile heart,
But then again I ask myself,
what's the point in life
if you can't feel pain.

I'm just a human,
Give me at least a chance to rest
Even if it's for a second
I will treasure
till every breathing moment.

Final Phase of Pre-Uni

In final phase of pre-uni right now! 

A-levels have been very challenging and stressful. 

Like any of you have heard, the transition from SPM to Pre-Uni is a very big leap! Especially if you're doing STPM. Applies well for both as for me. A-levels is much more stressful for me because the exam fees is so expensive and with our current exchange rate. I have to confess I didn't do very well in my AS level,am retaking this winter along with A2. Seriously, it's so tough. I doubt my ability and intelligence at times. Is this the right thing for me? I kept asking myself. Then again, I'm blessed with extremely supportive lecturers who have the confidence in me even when I don't. Really sorry for not trying hard enough. I know academic results does not define your life and definitely not doing well in it, IS a good lesson to review and look back to. I guess the super Asian in me can't stand not performing well. Most importantly, I need a scholarship. I was conceit to think that I can still do well like last time with just a little bit more effort. This time, it got me real bad. I'm still interested in science. Everything I learn intrigued me. Especially Physics, though I am not performing well in it. But hey, I just gotta keep going and so do you :)  

A-levels examination is on the way!

GOOD LUCK TO ALL 

CANDIDATE! 

Random photographs

I'm back

I have not been blogging very often since I'm too busy with studies.

Doing A-levels currently and I'm moving towards my final semester this coming July!

Times passes and yes, it was a tough course. Judging by the fact that me, not a very bright student doing such a difficult pre-university program. 

Stepping into A2 now and definitely it has become more challenging than usual. 

The next time I'm back...I'll blog about the pre-uni courses here.

Counting Blessings Day 1

To make life simply more beautiful 

All you need to do is count your blessings

If you ain't got one in your list

Make one? 

Here it goes!

1.I'm still breathing

2.I'm still in college

3.Lovely lunch made by my lovely housemates from Taiwan and China

4.Knowing someone who's always there to support you

5.Sheltered 

Part 1

Child Abandonment.

This issue is something which is very close to me. Something which I can greatly relate to and I think sharing it out to the public would help myself and those who are facing the same problem as I did. I grew up with a caretaker hired by my parents. I was under her care for almost 16 years alongside with my sisters. 

My parents divorced when I was 15. I knew it was coming that time. It didn't really bother me much emotionally as I was very used to their fights. We all were, my sisters too. I was the middle-child and believed to have suffered from this infamous middle-child syndrome. I was mostly emotionally neglected and I was pretty much of an attention seeker. I tried doing well academically as well as in other extra co-curricular activities. In spite of all the effort I put in and the achievements I've made, there is just no fate between both of my parents and me. They rarely took notice of me.I was just a kid but I clearly know what bias meant. I comfort myself often by trying to stay as optimistic as I can. I started comparing my life with those who are much more unfortunate than me, yet I still feel the emptiness in me.Contradictions came in. I have a good life, with all the basic needs I have but emotional support is just something I lack of. The attention from your family. The love of a mother. A void that I desperately tried to fill but the guilt of being a burden to others gushes into my bloodstream. On and off, on and off. As I grew up, I learned to be independent which I think it is an advantage to me. I did well in school, I have friends and school life was normal. I got adapted to the way of living with this void. I moved forward. Well, at least that is what I thought. 

When I turned 16, things started to change. 

The 24 Days With Students of Fukuoka University of Education

It was 8/08/2014 the day when 5 girls from Fukuoka University of Education moved in with us in the girls' hostel where as 3 boys from the same university moved into the boys' hostel. They stayed here for 24 days. Participating in our college's very own English programme. I still remember vividly how I was anticipating their arrival in the cafe, waiting for calls from the admins, being restless for the whole day. It was today, the day they depart.

During these 24 days of bonding, we learn about each others country roughly or maybe in depth through mixed language conversations. It was nice to know the way Japanese live and learning their thoughts in mind. We went to a few places like Times Square, Batu Caves and a few cultural activities in college.

Here are the list of event that happened during their stay here :

Kiyora's Birthday! 13/08/2014

Kiyora and Yoko. Kiyora made Japanese nabe for us.
This was the first night we celebrated dinner together.
It's been a while since someone cooked for me!

Our first weekend out to Berjaya Times Square.
Group selfie in Kelana Jaya LRT station.

Played Escape Room for the first time.
Great team work.
Made it to the last stage.
But fail to complete it.

Cultural activity in college.
We did some introductory about Malaysian culture.
Traditional costumes, food and many others.

Shu Yun , Sakura, Me

Group photo! 

Japanese Cultural Exchange.
The Japanese students did some introductory about Japanese culture and history as well.

Group photo again.

One of our last stop during the 24 days journey was Batu Caves. 

Beautiful statues and beautiful caves. 

Sadly, people were littering too much.

Panorama shot. 

                                             

Group photo in the train station.

Ryuta

On the way to MidValley!

On the way to KL Sentral

Waiting for KTM

Inter-college Hari Raya Closing Celebration

Fuki in Baju Kebaya

Shu Yun's guitar solo performance.

Yihua in Saree~

Kiyora in Chinese traditional costume. 

Graduation Ceremony ( 29/08/2014 )

Group photo. Congratulations to all who graduated from the
English Programme!

Loom band by Shu Yun!!!

For the last day, I received letter and gifts from everyone else. It was hard having to live without them since I got used to having so many in the unit. Nonetheless, I enjoy having all of you around!

 To all my Fukuoka University of Education students, it was indeed a great pleasure and blessing to have all of you all here. In this less than a month short of time, we did a lot of activities together, had some deep talks about your future careers and I am indeed impressed that all of you are aiming to become an educator. Keep the momentum going and I hope this one month programme of intensive English class has given you tones of help in improving your English.