Yea I wonder. A lot of things has been going on. Problems are piling up and so on. School was always fine, that is one thing I've never really worry about in life. All I have to do is study when the time comes and reach for my next aimed position in future. It was very silly of me to think that school was a hassle back then. Now that I've come across more in life, things such as worrying about school has now became a small matter to me. Now, when I get the big picture,  surprisingly, I was pretty calm. It has its own good way of it but somehow, I wish I'll react to it more. Showing no sign of reaction 'it' makes me  think that I've actually or practically turned into  a pretty cold person. Was I not bothered about it? Even if it's so, that is just not right. Well, I am sad but I don't seem to bother about being sad any more nor I bothered being specially happy too. I still love life, and appreciating life but I wish I could react more to situations like this sometimes. I wish sometimes, I could tell and actually make someone realize that, life isn't sad and there are people out there who face more difficulties in life than us. Somehow, it just came to me, being sad or not doesn't matter any more. If things has to go on that way, I have no choice but to follow. For as long as I'm still a teen, I have no right to deny or request. Because asking too much is just a pain in the ass. Complaining too much to someone, is just wasting my breath. Though I hate the fact that I have to restrict myself from talking too much about my problems to some one I'm suppose to. I just hate it. This is why people shouldn't judge a person when he/she doesn't know he/she well. There is always a story behind everyone not meant to be discovered. Even if I have the freedom to talk about it, I shall not. For some reason, my heart just doesn't let me do so. I have the responsibility to take it all and solve it all. In future I know, I will live a better life. I believe I will because God is there. I just have to be patient for the meantime. Even if it's 10 years from now, 20 years after and so on.