Pure luck?

I got my results for both violin and piano exam. Passed =) Piano..I just pass with merits =/ I think the examiner was a bit far to strict! 127! Could you like just give the 3 marks to me? >,> It's just 3 marks..so near! yet so far....Life is so sad! Things just doesn't goes the way you want. XD A short update for this blog.

            Seriously, I'm emotionally down these days. I had this sudden feeling about something back then when I was Form 1. Seriously, it sucks so much. I don't think the work is pressuring but sometimes, I just thought, am I better of being 'hitori'? Or am I meant to be 'hitori'? Nanka...sabishii desu. ...Somehow, the things that I yearned for a long time was coming true but in the end...I guess it has to end too. The world itself is big for us to explore? Are these things worth my attention? People say, enjoy your youth before its too late but, is there anything for me to enjoy? Those happy moments seems too short for me. It is just not enough. I tried to be more on the positive side but still, the sad moments seems to be too over whelming .

         Words can't really be trusted. A simple word of forgot can clear stuff up? A simple word of  sorry can soften one's heart? I don't think so. Please people, could you please open your eyes bigger? Think twice before you act and speak? Because of your carelessness people are suffering mentally and emotionally. Emotions are unpredictable. Since emotions doesn't has a face, it can't be spoken out loud! You have to understand and please, stop the questions like...Are you angry? What if its so? Does it even make a difference? You say you're saying the truth, since you've lied to me...making a fool out of someone, how are you gonna expect anyone to trust you? Because of your careless act, you've just destroy a person's trust. Yet, you don't realize. If everyone would think twice before they act, won't the world be a better place?

         I'm not telling you to change, or whatever. It seems like, when I'm hurt, you yourself feels guilty and it's making me feel guilty too for making you feeling guilty? So what now? Am I suppose to stay that way forever? I don't really know what now. Am I being to lenient? Selfish? Self centered? Maybe if I shut my mouth and pretend nothing happens then nothing of this bad feeling will be spread to others. It's like, it's much more better if one person gets hurt instead of two. I always thought that, '' It's better to make friends more than making enemies'' How long can I keep this principle alive since those moments are dragging down my spirit?


''You say that you'll be there for me but where are you now?'' ''You say that ''zutto tomodachi dakara..nani yo, sore? Baka janai no ka teme? Hidoi ne omae....